Once we are faced with relationships that turn bad it is easy to remember that trust is like a paper once it is crumpled it can never be perfect again. Trust is like an eraser – it get thinner and thinner each time mistakes has been made. Trust is a very tricky thing with any relationships, and people use their own defense mechanisms to survive lies.


I wanted to be good, to excel, to get the best out of my life. I wanted to be recognized, to do something good for other people too. It does not have to be something big but enough to carve a smile on other people’s face. I realized that it need to start here – now or it will never be realized.


The two days I was there were amazing and the feeling was beautiful. The sight of the nature are a lot different than in Kuala Lumpur. The buildings for the most part are all very old, made of stone, and intricately designed. The towns were small with the buildings close together. You can see children running around playing – there was no rush, nothing to worry about, the beauty of green countryside. Towns are not as spread out as Kuala Lumpur and streets are much more narrow. The peaceful feeling, the sound of birds and the wind. No more traffic jam.


I might also take a break from posting anything here for a while – I will be back soon. The reason is that internet connection at my hometown is not so good. I guess staying offline – out of any social media for a while might do me good. I do not know how long I will be unemployed – but I wish I will be able to learn a thing or two during this time.


“I am no one – I am unimportant piece of shit. No one going to like me, no one wanted me in their life. No one cares about me.” He whispered to himself in agony as his tears runs down his face


Is it wrong to tell something which is not an absolute truth to someone in order to make them feel better? Or is it better to speak the truth even it is hurting the other people? What do you think about this? Which one do you prefer ? Beautiful lies or the ugly truth ?


As I park the car and stepped out of it – I feel sudden sorrow as if I can see a vision of my former self wandering around the campus , walking down the hallway to lecture room – picking up girls at the cafe and having fun with my friends. It was few years back. The memories kicks in.